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Everything spins

I left out of the house this morning to go on our first MS 150 practice ride and my mind was spinning with competing images, thoughts, and musings. Riding to meet a familiar group – we all rode last year together – and yet I’m changed so completely. It was last year at the bike ride that rustlings began – there was the mesmerizing man who was emotionally unavailable – the unavailable but emotionally charged…

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All the world loves a lover

My talented beautiful friend writes me from SF with a big resounding congrats that I have taken life by the horns and found an incredible passion – she’s ready for one she says – (ANYBODY OUT THERE WHO DOESN’T SNATCH HER UP IS OUT OF THEIR FUCKING MIND) – that said, she ends with this quote which I love: ” L’amour est à ceux qui y pensent ” (Love belongs to those who think about…

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The lines around your eyes

A friend sends photos of herself – she’s an artist so all of her photos are sumptuously wonderful – but I see lines around her mouth and eyes – our age being archived before us – the thing is that she looks so incredibly beautiful, as if the lines are adding rather than subtracting from her beauty – how wonderful to look a someone age and see beauty deepen with time. Fuck a bunch of…

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Zen Masters of the Obvious

We went to a lecture the other day at Tulane by Ned Sublette – by way of anecdote, he cited a study that determined Israeli women have more sex when on vacation. Duh! Today, as I sat across from T and she was recounting an episode from the night before to J – something about the way she was in that moment – black eyes flashing, her quick foxy smile, the way she gestured with her…

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Grey and lovely

The sky is grey outside – a light smudged pale bluish grey – but it gives the entire landscape a wintery look when just a few days ago it seemed like spring was in the air (magnolias, red bud, and quince all blooming) – it’s a day to snuggle up to a lover, cozy up to a fire, to lie down with dogs and stroke their fur, to drink warm liquids, to slow down and…

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Gal Holiday and company

We headed to Frenchman Street last night with friends in tow to listen to Gal Holiday at DBA – she was awesome! Her iconic western wear, lithe body and graspable waist, and her darling voice. How cute is she! Anyway, we danced and danced and it felt good to be out and about, particularly after a gnarly day of computer angst that had me pacing around my desk for three hours as R worked furiously…

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Teaching myself to receive

A friend of mine told me a year ago that she had learned to surround herself with people she could count on. The conversation came up when she was asking to help me out and I kept saying no, and she said you need to learn to let people do for you too. I said I wasn’t used to having people do for me. But turns out last year I had some incredible friends solidify…

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On rituals, habits and repetition

Reading about why people continue to use Google over other search engines I was struck by how habitual users have an expectation for success every time they search on Google and that they pay attention to information that confirms their use such as others saying, yes I use Google all the time too. I’ve considered myself a person who likes routine in my life – there is something that gives me great joy in making…

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The wish box

I spoke to J today about the trip here in a week and caught her up on everything that has happened to me in the last month – she was significantly enthusiastic and said repeatedly “my how things can change in six months. last time we saw you, your goal was to get a man to make dinner for you” – I told her I expect this is the way it goes, one moment you…

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On irresistible bonfires

In the landscape of love, there are flash fires that extinguish by themselves, there are fires that burn down villages and leave nothing in their wake, there are fires that are lit but never tended, and then there is fire – burning pure and clean – that properly tended has the potential to warm you for love’s eternity. Yesterday, the fires were dotting my landscape – I ran into someone who reminded me of a…

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