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Winning the prize

I admit I am the prize. But in wondering why we are in each other’s lives right now, I came to this realization: You are here to tell me that I can love again and get my mojo back. I am in your life as the white elephant in the room, the one with the white lace bra, forcing you to face the big empty space you are creating in your life (again) – it’s…

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Therapy Quad

I had therapy yesterday – several armchair therapist friends and myself ransacked my being and came up with answers, advice, and areas to watch. A long distance ACT (arm chair therapist) had said to look at ANW (action not words) and yesterday while I was busy doing other things other than thinking about my current affairs, I started registering actions that were not jiving with words or with the picture I have painted in my…

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Fall on your knees

J and I walked Loca and Lucky through City Park today – it was the gloaming time, when light is suffuse and makes you nostalgic – the holiday red and green lights shone up against the concrete walls of the museum and the stone pillars of the park’s entrance – and I felt suddenly and again greatly blessed to be living in New Orleans, surrounded by people I love, and with enough challenges that keep…

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2nd Night of Hanukkah

Friends came over to celebrate the second night of Hanukkah and light all the menorahs with me – one made potato latkes and I brought steaks and we had champagne. Sometimes, as much as you are wanting and needing rest, friends over and enjoying the evening with you help assuage any bit of loneliness that might be threatening your usual joie de vivre. J thought I was bitchy so I put on my platinum blonde wig…

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Tea for two

Have you come here to break my heart?Just to say Happy Hanukkah.If I could lasso time in a neat round up I’d make it all happen right now – but faced with the fact that you come packing – lugging baggage – when I’ve spent so much time divesting myself – again, I’m faced with a waiting game that never seems to end. Because – because what?  

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Tempered insanity

I went to bed at 8:30 last night and read and read and read till I fell asleep. Then I woke at 3AM – my mind a bevy of detached thoughts – do I need to get a waterproof bag for my duck hunting trip next weekend? – how come I am head over heels about someone I barely know? – my mother left a message to watch the Victoria Secret show, I didn’t call…

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Happy Hanukkah! What is Hanukkah?

Hanukkah   The story of Hanukkah is the story of religious freedom. In 168 BC King Antiochus the 4th, who inherited his kingdom from Alexander the Great, set up an idol in the Jewish temple and ordered Jews to worship it. He was a zealous Hellenist and wanted all people to follow Greek ways. A revolt led by Mattathias and his son Judah the Maccabee to overthrow Antiochus raged with the odds against the Jews; …

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