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I don’t know

Everybody I know ilkes to ask me about Graham. They ask, “what does she want?” – I always answer the same way, “I don’t know.” I told Graham I was going to get a tee shirt that says “I don’t know what Graham wants, so don’t ask me.” But we decided just “I don’t know” would suffice.

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The strange child within

I spoke with a source of mine who is around the same age, married with two children. We talked about this age – the 40s – and how it is a weird and wonderful time. I said I don’t even relate to who I was in my thirties, it’s like I relate more to the person I was in my 20s. She said she felt the same way – except she feels like a 20…

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Dulling the mind with sameness

I stepped off the merry go round today and that only reluctantly but I felt as if I was getting dull. My mind was gravitating towards the same things, the path of least resistance, the thought of no consequence, and the action that is rote. Caught up in contentment, you tend to grow dull – fat and happy – resistant to new ideas. I realized I want to do this book and so I recontacted…

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Changing the path you are on

When I was at the Can, it made sense to walk around the bayou in the morning, but now that I am in the LaLa and adjusting to my foot recovery, I’ve changed my path and oh, what a difference to me. The past two mornings, I’ve been walking across the Magnolia Bridge and then circling back on the Esplanade Bridge to enter City Park. Recently, someone donated 7 swans – 2 blacks ones –…

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The recovery is long

I don’t know if it is my age or if major things are just happening in my life. But it seems to me that the recovery period is taking longer for everything than I would anticipate. Broken heart – forgetabout it – you don’t get over it, you get through it. Broken marriage – the F remains on your marriage score card for life and I have three Fs thus far – one that really…

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Rachel E. Dangermond, A Single Woman

I just got my tax bill (CROAK) – that is the sound of me gasping for air. I asked my accountant what the hell? and the response – you are filing single now. Good grief – is it not penalty enough to give up good sex three times a week that now I must also give up the equivalent of the cost of a brand new GMC Denali? When I signed the closing papers for…

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Knitting together

R is going to be in a play on Saturday where she represents a mother whose daughters won’t leave the flock and so at one point she gathers them to her and says okay I don’t have much left to teach you so I’ll teach you how to knit. So R enlisted N to come teach her at Swirl last night and pretty soon a gaggle of girls, me included, gathered around to knit since…

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