Three more days till we leave – yahoo! Last night on rooftop at Reata I told S about a conversation I had had with the other S about how there is all this hitting on going on at the company and how she said I intimidate men – funny I thought I was demure and approachable – said that is why I only attract strong men and S said does that mean you think I…
The next five are going to be interminable but soon will be home. The morgue is alive and well in the meantime – silence on the point of … – meanwhile since I took all my Vs for recreation now don’t have them for medication, which of course I totally need today. Trying to gather momentum to at least go out and take a run but difficult when you feel like organs are being compressed…
One week away and almost home – meanwhile some people want me just to themselves, some want me as an addition to their group, some want me to play 24/7, some just want me to pick up the phone when they call but what I say is when is that time that I get to sit on a porch alone and think about the things that I want? The time alone in my life has…
We arrived in New Orleans after a not so long car ride that included a stop at PreJeans for lunch. N asked the waitress and anyone else that would listen if they had a car to sell as Mom had called crying and said her car was dead. The waitress asked if he had a house to sell as they had lost theirs in Rita. What goes on? It just is so invasive Katrina, Rita,…
Husband says to his wife in bed – you don’t love me anymore – I feel adrift and depressed. Wife says I love you deeply. Husband says I watch you with the boy and see unconditional love there, I want that love from you like it used to be. Things are different now, says the wife. I’ve been changing. I’m overwhelmed by what goes on and so I move to the nonserious, to the ephemeral…
S, N and I are driving to New Orleans tomorrow to check it out and see if we can go home yet. The Can isn’t letting anyone in for two months but S and I could stay at T’s house till the Can reopens. Meanwhile, L is back and he says the first day Max rolled in a dog carcass on the bayou and that was his welcome home. He’s bitter without having had a…
N believes the wee wee wee cannot come first, of course he was the one who told me how the piggies really go – you do the wee wee wee by moving past the little piggy and scaling the rest of the leg – makes total sense but I had it just at wiggling hard the last piggy and that was wee wee wee. I was driving down the freeway and thinking to mysel why…
Translates into don’t be impressed by anyone else’s version of the future, you have all the perspective you need right now to fulfill your day. This day has exhausted me because it started with a hurricane (alarm didn’t go off) and it has been thick with trying to stack the piles in their appropriate places and not making any headway. Traveling seems to wear down my defenses so I need to get my guard back…