I reached a saturation point with people – too many special interests, none can be ultimately satisfied, and so it turns back to the task at hand – the core. The core is still weak but getting stronger. (Thank you Joseph Pilates.) N&B are back and Renny’s happy but it was nice to get one last walk this morning in with L and just go over all the laundry list of what needs repeating or…
So S is concerned that he’s fighting a ghost and while I don’t discount anything she tells me and it makes me sad to hear what she has to say sometimes, I think she too is fighting the ghost of C past. C (or D as she covertly refers to him) was rank bad, and she knew something was not right but was still blindsided, think she can’t forgive herself or him. She has never…
What do you say to your 50 year old friend when he tells you that he is fucking a woman with a fake ID – carpe diem or watch yourself? Neither, you tell him how convention has never satisfied you even though you and everyone you know seeks to have it and hold it with both hands clenched. Let’s say you love someone but you look down across maybe a decade and have a good…
Unfortunately not in Marin and as Oscar Wilde says – the only thing to do with temptation is to yield to it – again and again. 36 hours of no celebration makes it difficult to remember what the temptation was in the first place. It could have something to do with the petite nun who walks by just as we are leaving playdate. More than likely temptation is always there but in different guises –…
Cig at 4AM in keeping with the derelict life that is expected of you here. Tortured dinner and a quick drop off. Let me guess? Off to Rick’s to console yourself with unfamiliar ass. I was hoping at 3:30 this morning for an objective observer to just crash on in and say, yeah you’re right, you don’t have to accept selfish behavior yet again. Disappointment over a present. What I would have said to S…
There was rain and lots of it. Morning off to a sweet start then crisis disrupts the rhythm. The dogs are barking because they all three want the tennis ball and there is only one. L is ready for his nubile houseguest to go – worried about how it looks from the outside but more than that knows how it looks from the inside. Waiting for B to give the green light and as usual…